Miss Marii

such a piece of shit.

that’s what i am.

i feel like people do not respect me; that i am a joke and i’m not taken seriously by anyone!

urgh!!!!!@#$%^&*(

alone… pretty fuckin’ alone! …. yep!

i need to learn to be enough for myself. whatever this package contains is what i will depend on…

really need something to keep me together; a sign or something….

At 10:05pm I experienced my first earthquake! OMG!

I was i my room… sitting on the floor… writing on my notebook (which was on the bed)… and my computer was next to me because i was doing iChat video with my bf. All of the sudden, i feel my booty vibrating, and my hand was on the bed and it was shaking too! I looked over and my blanket was shaking… big time! At the moment, i didn’t realize it was an earthquake. I kept looking everywhere to see what the hell was making my bed shake that much.

Once it was over, i look at my computer and yelled to my bf: “There was an earthquake!!!“. He looked at me kind funny. And two seconds after he found the info online… all the details. I was also chatting with one of my neighbors and she was like: “did you feel that?!?!!”.

Everyone on facebook had updated their status and were talking about the earthquake. It was such a weird experience. My bf said that i looked like a confused puppy. He said that before i told him, i was looking everywhere… one side… then to the other side… etc. haha

Anyways, we’re okay. According to what he told me, it wasn’t a crappy one, but it wasn’t too too big.. At least we’re safe and okay.

Here’s the info:
  Date: March 11th, 2009
  Time 10:05 p.m.
  Magnitude 4.9
  Location 19.054°N, 66.458°W
  Distance 45 miles NNW from the capital

[link]: http://earthquake.usgs.gov/eqcenter/recenteqsww/Quakes/us2009ecac.php

My 101 in 1001 has been published.

I posted a list with 101 (actually 99… need to come up with 2 more still) things i need to get done in 1001 days.

It’ll be fun! (i hope!)

[edit]: 1:04pm - i was able to come up with 2 more things for my list; which means… my list is finally completed!

Gggggggrrrrrrr……..!!!!!!!!
F*CK!!!!!!!!!

Buy a plane ticket so i can see my boyfriend or the cutest green Coach wallet? - get the plane ticket of course!!

It looks like i have developed a behavior; whenever i’m upset… i post here. Well, that was kind of the idea for when i created this. I wanted to have a place to vent before ripping someone’s head off.

For a change, that’s not the purpose of this post.

A couple days ago i got back from visiting my boyfriend. We went with his family on a cruise to Catalina and Ensenada, Mx. It was a lot of fun! I kept calling it our “trial honeymoon”; and we definitely pass the test according to…….myself! haha After the cruise i spent a little over a week at his house. It felt better than ever! I was really happy. We spent a lot of time together, i also did some cruise-scrapbooking, and most important… some GOOD SHOPPING!!

Now, i’m back home. Ready to start my last quarter from my Bachelor’s Degree. I couldn’t be happier… well, i guess i could but i’m a little scared that something will go wrong and …. - i don’t even wanna say it… *sighs* Classes start next Monday, and i will go register tomorrow and get a couple things sorted out.

Other than that, i also need to start looking and applying for jobs! I’m sooo excited!!!!!

Oh! I also posted a Gallery page with several albums. It’s still under construction but i will try and keep it updated. It’s password protected. So… if I have you the link to my blog that means you are allowed to have for the password… so just… ask for it! If you’re just sneaking around… sneak your way OUT!

I’m feeling better now. I guess the big change that I’m about to go through freaks me out sometimes.

I guess I have to be more positive and believe that I have worked hard for this and I deserve it. Feeling 100% sure about all of it, it’s not on my hands or power. So, gotta believe it with closed eyes for now.

So… there’s a lot going on right now.  Finals are coming up and i will miss them because I’m going on a cruise with my boyfriend and his family (i am very excited about that!).

However, I’m panicking and freaking out about a lot of other things. Even though, i try to stay calm and think that everything is and will be okay, it’s hard to believe.

I don’t even know if this post is gonna make sense, and i certainly shouldn’t  be writing here because there are other things that need to be done. I just need to type whatever’s in my mind right now in an attempt of feeling better and relaxed.

I’m as broke as i can be right now. I don’t like asking for money so i have to deal with it. I tried applying for a loan and there are some issues with my previous loan, so i gotta fix that first. And then, i just heard that they canceled my federal grant for the past and present quarters. What does it mean? That either i get to solve that with the people from my school, or I have to pay for school. (not a good option at the moment).

If i don’t pass my current classes or the ones that i will take next quarter, I AM NOT GRADUATING.. So, yeah… pretty much the pressure’s on.

I need to start looking for jobs and applying for them in order for me to be able to support myself once i move. Plus, i don’t even know if i am good enough for them…

What if that and the rest do not work?